It's crazy how much two little holes in your gums can completely affect your life. Yesterday afternoon, the stitches in my left wisdom tooth hole came out - I don't know if it was my fault, if I tried to eat normal food too quickly, or if I smiled or laughed too much, but they fell out and I was like oh boo but didn't think much of it.
During debriefing time last night, which was like 2 hours long, I had this odd sensation that my left gum was growing right over top of my teeth and I was like whoa nelly what is going on but of course I am a good-mannered little Chinese girl and chose to sit there in silence with a weird look on my face as I tried to peel back this new gum with my tongue. I finally run upstairs after we're done and open my mouth and am absolutely horrified to see that there is a huge congealed mass of blood covering the left side of my bottom teeth. As I gasp and frantically try to wash it out and more blood than I've ever seen keeps pouring out of this stupid hole in my mouth, I must convince myself in the mirror that I am not a vampire.
It's funny how helpless you can feel because of your own stupid body. The bleeding just kept gushing out for the next 6 hours, and I literally felt like life was being drained out of me. And I just got so angry, because I didn't know how to stop it, because I foolishly emptied my gauze out of my bag at home thinking that I wouldn't really need it, because paper towels and blood taste absolutely horrible after a while. And I was so scared to go to sleep because I thought I would wake up with a mouth filled to the brim with red goodness and just drown in it and die. But I managed to sleep, and I woke up this morning very disgusted once again but praise God that absolutely none of it is on my pillow or sleeping bag. I'm still not very sure how that happened.
If you ever have a moment in your day, please pray that this thing will heal miraculously and speedily so that I can go to Six Flags with my girls for the last time ever and not be a burden and gushing from the mouth the entire time. Please pray that this light-headedness from losing so much blood will go away, and that if it doesn't - that I will not be bitter and will be able to realize if it will really be better for my kids if I choose to stay home. But bah, I hate that option.
Mother, if you're reading this, please do not kill me. I tried to keep it healthy and clean but I don't really know what happened. :[
Man, I could never be an oral surgeon. Teeth, blood, and gums are absolutely repulsive.
During debriefing time last night, which was like 2 hours long, I had this odd sensation that my left gum was growing right over top of my teeth and I was like whoa nelly what is going on but of course I am a good-mannered little Chinese girl and chose to sit there in silence with a weird look on my face as I tried to peel back this new gum with my tongue. I finally run upstairs after we're done and open my mouth and am absolutely horrified to see that there is a huge congealed mass of blood covering the left side of my bottom teeth. As I gasp and frantically try to wash it out and more blood than I've ever seen keeps pouring out of this stupid hole in my mouth, I must convince myself in the mirror that I am not a vampire.
It's funny how helpless you can feel because of your own stupid body. The bleeding just kept gushing out for the next 6 hours, and I literally felt like life was being drained out of me. And I just got so angry, because I didn't know how to stop it, because I foolishly emptied my gauze out of my bag at home thinking that I wouldn't really need it, because paper towels and blood taste absolutely horrible after a while. And I was so scared to go to sleep because I thought I would wake up with a mouth filled to the brim with red goodness and just drown in it and die. But I managed to sleep, and I woke up this morning very disgusted once again but praise God that absolutely none of it is on my pillow or sleeping bag. I'm still not very sure how that happened.
If you ever have a moment in your day, please pray that this thing will heal miraculously and speedily so that I can go to Six Flags with my girls for the last time ever and not be a burden and gushing from the mouth the entire time. Please pray that this light-headedness from losing so much blood will go away, and that if it doesn't - that I will not be bitter and will be able to realize if it will really be better for my kids if I choose to stay home. But bah, I hate that option.
Mother, if you're reading this, please do not kill me. I tried to keep it healthy and clean but I don't really know what happened. :[
Man, I could never be an oral surgeon. Teeth, blood, and gums are absolutely repulsive.
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I've had an experience like that before. I was playing soccer and someone kicked a soccer ball right into my mouth. The impact hurt, and I didn't feel anything after the hit, but everyone was staring at me in horror: apparently, the kid who hit me knocked out most of my bottom teeth, causing an absolute waterfall of blood to come rushing out of my mouth. It kept pouring for about a day. I didn't feel anything at all- probably from getting hit in the face. But they rushed me to the water fountain. I just remember this very specifically: there was a long line of soccer players standing in front of the fountain. They took one look at me, though, and all of them backed away from the fountain in a rush.
ahhh!!!!
that sounds absolutely horrid. idk how you did it, i would have totally freaked and gone running to someone in hysterics. lol what a sight that would be.
but yes, hahahah i checked the blog a little late. ive been so out of things lately. but i have been praying for the fair. its so weird not being there this year, but i decided to give my body a rest this year. i dont wanna put a burden on the team and my parents, so i checked out for a bit. too bad, it would have been our 4th year together lol.
praying for you.
mimi
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